Monthly Archives: September 2007

Fall is Falling!

Well, the leaves have been for the past month anyway.  I guess no one has told them that it is still 90!  It has been awhile since I have written anything so I thought in my not sleeping time tonight I would update. 

Let’s see.  August was HOT. hot. and HoT!  Yuck!  Yuck!  Yuck!  But my client began to do much better and things were going well.  We have only 2 sessions left.  It is hard to believe but it is so wonderful to hear her mom say how much she has changed and the difference I have made.  That is so cool.

Also cool was seeing a ton of deer, armadillo, a fox, a rattlesnake, and various types of hounds almost every week on my way to work.  It is a great way to start the day to be so close to nature.  There is a house near where I go with a blue tin roof that I am so coveting.  It isn’t for sale and it is about 80 miles from Nashville but wow, the view! 

For Labor Day weekend I went down to Atlanta for DragonCon for the first time.  Wow!  As a friend of mine said, “This is like Spring Break for geeky adults!”  Yep.  It was 🙂  I played board games, RPGs, went to a panel discussing my favorite fantasy series, watched Dr. Who and The Hogfather in the BBC track, took about 50 pictures of people in the coolest costumes!  I wish wordpress has picture capability cause I would post some of them.  I got to hang out with my friends and make new friends.  We ate good food, drank good wine and cocktails, didn’t sleep, and laughed a lot.  It was SUCH a good time.  I enjoyed it so much I bought a ticket for next year.  Yep.  I’m a geek. 

K and I had a serious talk about 3 weeks ago.  I was lamenting my small house and not having room to have a dinner party.  She said, “Nonsense, if you wanted to have a party you would.”  So, I am.  Tomorrow.  Thanks to the beef guy.  Hopefully these ribeye steaks will be super tasty and the conversation will be good too.  I’m looking forward to it.

Oh, this week.  What a decision filled mess!  I got my BCBA certificate in the mail.  That is fantastic!  It is real and true.  I don’t know if I said that it was a fiasco.  It was a fiasco–but now it is real 🙂  But I also got a job offer.  See here’s the thing.  I want to do my business.  That’s what I want.  I have enough money right now to go about 2 more months.  But with the offer if I work for 2 months I probably have 3 more months (on top of the 2…) which is more time for the contracts to get processed etc.  I just don’t want my soul sucked out through eye sockets in the meantime.  I guess I have never had a job for the “money”.  I’ve mostly done what I’ve enjoyed for people I’ve either appreciated as colleagues or didn’t have to interact with them much.  So.  I feel crappy about taking a job I don’t want but maybe I’ll be suprised.

 So the wrestling has been: How do you recognize a door God has brought to you vs. a temptation that you are meant to avoid?  I’m not talking about easy things like the difference between going to church on Sunday morning or to the all you can eat brunch 🙂  I’m talking about things like this job offer.  How do I know if this is God’s way of saying, “You were worrying about money, now you don’t have to”, or the opponents way of saying, “Give up your dream, you’ll never make it, you’ll go broke and have nothing.”  See, very different messages.  Is walking the line between the two equally sinful? 

Ahhhhh.  But I put in a tentative acceptance i.e. I gave myself a 60 day trial.  We’ll see if that gets accepted or not. 

I wish there was an easy way to fly to Indianapolis.  I wish I could make carbonated water at home.  I wish I found it easier to sleep. 

I’m thinking about finding a new home for Kaija.  I have really mixed feelings on it.  I am not attached to her at all.  I resent her.  I don’t like her.  She is aggressive and mean.  I have a spot for her at a boarding school in November.  I’m trying to decide whether or not to keep her and do that or put up an add on Craig’s list for her.  She really needs a home where she is the only dog.  At least that is what I think now.  I have trouble remember how I felt about Molly in the beginning.  If I loved her then as much as I do now.  I have no idea.  My life was so chaotic and stressful then that I don’t remember much about it.  But I love her now and she is such a great dog.  It makes me feel guilty that I don’t feel similarly about Kaija.  Ahhhhh.

It is always something.  Isn’t it?

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